But I'm glad I tried - because it gave me a a breath of fresh air again, however little. After a long dry spell, I was writing again and I saw words on a page and letters on the screen. I was no longer afraid of my voice and what might come out. I had forgotten how much fun it is to scribble and blog, so I'm glad I had the opportunity to get back to it, however brief.
A new year heralds a lot of new beginnings. "But only say the Word and my soul shall be healed," we always say at Mass. For me, it's my favorite line, and it's about finding that elusive word for the year; the one word that will keep me focused, growing, and thankful for yet another year. I had amazing years for Hawak (2008) and Bulaga! (2009)... and somewhat of a slow start with Halikayo (2012)... and some years just seemed quiet and wordless, which was worrying.
I was exchanging messages with a dear friend over Facebook and she said the word, and it just felt right for 2013. Courage.
I need to have the courage to let go of fears.